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I go ooh ooh, you go ah ahlalalalalalalala I can't lie lie lie lie lie lie I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want Don't stop Give me give me give me what you got got Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more Don't even talk about the consequence Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think Cause you're the only one who's on my mind I'll never ever let you leave me I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye) I feel so untouched And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Been going crazy from the moment I met you Untouched And I need you so much See you, breathe you, I want to be you Alalalala alalalala You can take take take take take time time To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life Give me give me give me all of you you Don't be scared I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right 'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around To answer all the questions left behind And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today You've still got me to hold you up up And I will never let you down (down) I feel so untouched And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Been going crazy from the moment I met you Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched Alalalala alalalala Untouched Alalalala alalalala I feel so untouchedv And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Been going crazy from the moment I met you I feel so untouched And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Been going crazy from the moment I met you Untouched, untouched, untouched [disclaimer-] |
i can't be who you are
time out if everyone's worth pleasing
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Saturday, April 25, 2009 @2:15 AM
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Friday, April 24, 2009 @10:34 PM
betrayal
What i said before? What exactly did i say before? My bad, i forget. Turning my back on you and THEM? I might be turning my back on you but not them, i think. I have enough of them. If i'm betraying you then i'm sorry. Well, like i said before, i can't sit with you because of them. That's all. You went offline when i went online. How to talk like that? What do you want me to do now Syirah? Go back and sit with all of you? Is that it? I'm sorry i hurt you in anyways Syirah. Well, i don't know what i should do now because nothing i do seems to be right. Maybe not sitting with you or them would be the choice right? I should just sit alone :] Like that, i won't be betraying anybody and i won't be hurting anybody. I'm really sorry Syirah. And Nabillah, i'm sorry too. Yeah i know i'm so irritating in class and so noisy and stuffs. Well actually i don't know why you're actually mad at me but i'm sorry. Now, it's up to you to accept my apology. ***** Oukay... Went to Jurong Point with mom after my guitar class ystd. I showed my the phone i want and she's like "Ummm not bad." and she walked out of the shop. And i ran after and smiled and she said " After exams, no failed subjects." Oh hell. I just realise i wrongly did my MT compo! Ah.. And it's a huge mistake! Sad. I hope my paper 2 pull my marks up :[ It worries me badly. Pft! ♥ Labels: HUGE mistake. headache
Baaah~! What's up with everybody? Alright, here's the thing. Firstly, i'm suddenly thinking of him and all i wanna do is cry. And secondly, she's trying to say i'm putting the blame on Syirah? What did i do? I only tell you why i didn't sit with you and i thought you would understand but instead, you're saying i'm blaming you. Ugh! Why must i be the one apologising all the time? I'm the one treated as the spare tire and i'm the one saying sorry? I think you should apologise to me right? I'M SORRY, OK? I never mean to hurt you, you, you or you. NEVER. Now, it's up to me to hang out with whoever i want. You might talk bad about them and me, go ahead. That's what you think and feel, i can't stop you. Between us two, we're no more like before. No more bestfriends. You hurt me so bad, it's hard to forgive and forget but since i'm so nice, i'll just forgive:] But won't forget. I don't mind hanging out with you all in class since it's just studies and stuffs. But outside class? Maybe not. Once bitten, twice shy ;] You know how bad she hurts you when she played around with your feelings? That's exactly how i feel. You're hurting me just like how she hurts you. I tried to forget you. I tried so hard. But i failed. I can't believe i FAILED! :[ You're the reason i still believe. You're my destiny. ♥ Labels: Queen of Denial. fridayyy
Finally it's Friday! :] MT paper was alright. It wasn't tough but it wasn't easy too. No confidence in passing the paper. Oh wells. After school, went to look for Ms Ruzana to pass her my art work but she wasn't in the art room so eunice and me went to the stuff room and she gave us the art room key so we went up again, and instead of putting my art work, i had to bring them home again. I didn't know i have yet to finish my Italian namecard thingi... Hhmmm... Then locked the art room door then went to the stuff room to give back the key to Ms Ruzana then she told me to unlock the door because later students wanna go in then i have to go back upppp. Finally, went to the canteen with Ain, Aishah, Aisyah and Syahindah then kena tahan at DM Room. Well only Aisyah and Aishah kena tahan actually. Then, went to walk around outside school, laughed and talked and more laughs :] And then, Aishah suddenly ask who i like and then i was like 'SHOOTS!' I tried so hard not think about him but thennn... Haiya. Forget it. Blablabla...Then, took 187 with Ain, Aisyah and Syahindah. In the bus, so kecohhh. Laughed so hard until my stomach hurts. Then took the train while Ain, Aisyah and Syahindah went home. And in the train, it smells like dead fish. Smelly doinks. Reached Admiralty took 964, home. Syirah, sorry if i make you cry. Well, whatever the reason is, i know it's about me. It's about me hanging out with them. You feel like i betrayed you, is that it? I'll tell you why i suddenly hang out with them. When i hang out with Dian and all, i don't feel that there's a trust between us. As in all of us. They're always hiding something from me. Well yeah, somethings are not meant to be told to friends. I know. Still i feel offended. Left out. You're the one who wants to hanging out with them. Well maybe one of the reasons you wanna hang out with them is because you can finish up your work. Or maybe you hang out with them because you and her are no more friends? Let bygons be bygons. I don't want to hang out with Dian and all today and the next hang out with Aishah and all. That's not right, i know. But i gotta sort things out. And Nabillah is irritated with me so why hang out with her? I don't want you all to talk about me behind my back when i hang out with you all. I know now that i'm not hanging out with you and them, sure you guys said something ; " Aerna and Syahindah change a lot..." and stuffs like that. For sure. Right? You're still my friend. Anything happens, i'll still need you there to support me and i'll always be here when you need me :] And please, treat me like how you treat me before alright? *Sigh* I wonder why all this happen now? I don't know how to get my stories straight to anybody. I don't know how i'm suppose to sort things out. Gosh. I guess after the exams, i'll have to do a little reflection on myself. I have to make up my mind. Sometimes, nothing seems to work out. ♥ Labels: i gotta find the path to lead me to the light
Thursday, April 23, 2009 @12:46 AM
1 down many many more to go.
English paper was alright. I took a very long time to think of a story to write for paper 1 but i manage to finish it on time:D I finished 15 minits earlier and i went to sleeeep. I haven't got anything to blog about this days. Sorrey. Sometimes, people say "you can talk shit about me but it won't hurt me a single but!" Tell me, who likes being insulted? I know i'm killing you SLOWLY, aren't i? Yeap! I'm glad i'm doing that. I'd rather see you die and suffer alright. I look like a nerd but i don't think like one:D So bitch, don't stare me and my friends anymore. Haiya, sometimes... This people just don't wanna show their weak side but truth is it's too obvious to be hidden now. LOL. Haiya... I wanna end my exams fast. Cannot tahan. Tomorrow's MT, lucky there isn't much to remember:D Just have to memorise some stuffs. Pft. And then, we have 1 week exam break then it's Jannah's b'day then History? Cannot remember. Lol. Hang out with the bestest people. You know who you are lah eh:D Shall hang out more ofter ok?? Hee~! I was laughing my ass off. OMG. On Monday on the way home, i saw this oh-my-gosh-so-cute-guy-ever in the train. And he was directly opposite me:D And i was looking at him until he dropped off at CCK. I shall end this post now. I'll update again when i have something interesting to talk about eh? :) ♥ Labels: i wanna end it fasttt.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @10:16 AM
mugging
Maybe sometimes, this is why you can't get a true friend. You want everything to go your way. I mean, c'mon. You can't take control of everything. You're backstabbing others without you realizing it. Among you 4, trust me, none of you can believe each other. Even i can't believe ANY of you girls. So sorry. After reading this, you'll be angry at me, i know. But no matter how hard i try not to make you mad OR irritated, you'll still be. The 3 of you told her to not tell me who she likes because i'll freak out and blog about it. Well, what can i do if she likes him? I can't force her not to like him and i won't even get mad. You guys can seriously put away does masks. It's not working on me:) I'm not mad or anything. I'm just trying to get things straight. Let me tell you what i think towards you,you,you and you. You know who you are, girls. I treat you as my close friends. We've been friends for a year now but still, there's no trust between us. The 4 of you can't trust each other, seriously. You girls are always hanging out together but if one of you is not there, the backstabbing starts. I'm not trying to ruin your friendship here. It's a pretty long note huh? Well, there's more. If you don't like me hanging out with her, tell me. I won't hang out with her. The reason why i hang out with her is because she's not happy hanging out with you guys. She always has problems hanging out with you guys. And the 2 of you, try to keep your mouth shut? I'll know whatever shit you guys are hiding from me at the end of the day. You girls can really join acting class. Really. You should stop talking about others. In the class, you cannot trust anybody. I'm trying so hard now not to tell anybody my secrets because it'll spread so fast. And if you're irritated with me, i'm sorry. What did i do till i irritate you so bad? I was so sick in class on Monday but i did my work, alright. What? You're irritated with me because i asked you for tissue? LOL. Then i won't ask from you anymore :D You're gonna tell them all this in the morning the next day after you read this. Tell then. I DON'T TRUST ANY OF YOU AT ALL NOW. But i still treat you all as my friends. And i do not have any bestfriend of 'sisterlurb' in the class OR school:D I think it's time you all should know the truth. ♥ Labels: trust.
Monday, April 20, 2009 @4:47 AM
not again...
I'm freaked out. I'm losing my breathe. Asthma attack. And my nose is like a pipe :( HELP ME. School was horrible for me. I can barely concentrate on whatever my teachers are teaching me. Messaged Kak Siti during lessons:) Had test. Literature and Science. I was messaging Syirah for the answers XD And i failed my Math test by 1 mark :( Not so bad lah eh... I'm irritated by every single thing now. And i don't know how to study with this kinda condition. Oh sadzz. This will be a stupid shorttt post alright. ♥ Labels: I can't stand it anymore
Saturday, April 18, 2009 @9:44 PM
sick again
I am sick again. Bah... Ooo... There's a new movie. Band Slam. I wanna watch.. But i don't think i can:( Omg, falling sick over and over again, i feel like i'm dying! And now, i'm like craving for ice-creams and marshmallows but sad i can't eat them since i'm sick-__- Harry Potter's coming out this July:D Wooo~! That is a must must watch... ***** Update... So, i went out with Mom, Dad and Aniq.. Went to Aunt's place but i decided to wait in the car:D I was listening to Power 98. MILEY CYRUS! Hoho.. ok whatever... Then went to Forks and Spoon to buy food then mom and dad sent me home first because they wanna go get some stuffs and i don't wanna follow because i wanna watch Paris Hilton's My New BFF. Kakak dunno what sawan wanna put make up on my face.. Pft. Now i look like some minah. Aiyo. I'm waiting for Wizards of Waverly Place to start. damn. Just 10 mins ago, i have loads to talk about but now, my mind is BLANK. Damn it. When your girlfriends just keep coming up to you and talking about the boy she likes all day long, won't you feel irritated? I've been tolerating your gawddamn nonsense! You know i like him so i'll appreciate it with you zip it, alright? :D Sometimes, i feel like i'm too kind to people until they took advantage of it. UGH! So i guess i'll just be mean and nasty? Yeah? Is that better? -.-"' Don't-test-my-patient. ok? You can backstab me and stain my name all you want but trust me, your name will be even more stained then mine:D People will know you as one backstabbing bitch. yeah, BITCH. You're trying to make people hate me by saying stuffs 'bout me but darlin' it won't freaking work! I think i'll be moving to another website soon. Xanga maybe? Or er.. Wordpress? or Live journal? We'll see how aye? I'll update all of you as soon as i move to another webby.:D Lalalala Lalalala:D ♥ Labels: there's no cure for my sickness obsessed.
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Friday, April 17, 2009 @10:12 AM
another cycle of week.
I'm tired so i'll try to make the post short. I was late for school AGAIN and it's the 4th time this term. Seriously, moving to Admiralty is just too far for me to travel early in the morning and waking up at 5:30AM is just the worst challenge ever. I reached school aroun 7:40AM and i have to go to the DM Room. I have to go for detention after school. Sad. Then went back to class. It's Math! I slacked. LOL. Almost everybody wasn't doing anything! :D Syahindah was absent. Pft. Then PE. Wah, HELL! We have to run 8 friggin' rounds and i only ran 7. Cannot tahan. And almost everyone stopped running after their 3rd round-.- Then recess. Then English and then Lit. I did Art instead:) Manage to finish 1 of my art work. Hand it in and i'm left with 2! Then i rushed to the DM Room. Detention from 12:50 till 2. It was suppose to be till 4 but i have History QAMS test. So yeaps. I did Art during detention:D Justin accompanied me. So nice of him. Hah Hah. Then he had to go off and i finished my Art so i slept. Then finally it was 2 o'clock. Searched for Mr Boh then went to the canteen. And i went for History QAMS. The test was easy, i think... I hope i pass it. After History, went to the Art room to finish my art work.. Ms Ruzana switched on songs through her lappy. Funney. Sing and vandalize instead of doing my art. Then Ms Ruzana blanja us goreng pisang. Very nice^.^ Then mom called. Meet her at Gombak. Makan. Then went to Granny's place at Clementi. Dad came. Then i went off for guitar lesson. Met mom at Granny's place after guitar. Dad went out then picked us up. Went Alif, eat. Kak Dila, Abg Sham and Kak Leha came. Yadayadayada... Then sent them home and then we went home and i bathed and now i'm beh-log-ging :D I still feel itchy. Bah!! Jannah, relax yeah! :D I love you loads, babe! It's currently 1:23AM and my lappy battery is red. Dying. Pft. I'm going to bed:) ♥ Labels: Kiss me through the phone bby.
Thursday, April 16, 2009 @4:34 AM
teach me how to dance ? NO.
Celebrated Azmira's birthday in school today. I hope she enjoys it. Hah hah. We bought her a chocolate cake and ouh gosh the cake was AWESOME but at the same time VERY fattening.. Haha.. Cakes.. What do you expect? So lets start from silent reading. I lost my New Moon so i borrowed my friend's. And then my class and 2 Pearl was asked to stay back at the parade square-.-"' Kena scolding. Haiyo. Then it was Home Econs. Cooked some Italian dish which was oh-so-nice but it was oh-so-fattening. LOL. After Home Econs was Science. I slept all the way till recess :D Recess didn't go too well. Some biatch just kept starring me and oh gawd she's only Sec 1. Damn it, she ought to be thought a lesson. Hah. And she told Ruzaini to tell Syahindah to 'WATCH OUT'. ooo scary? What you gonna do to her huh? You can't touch her dammit :P Go mind your own business. Go exercise your fat ass. Gosh! After recess was MT! Boring! -__-zzz Then it was Geography! Even more boring. Then Art. I have a pile of work not done yet. Die. Then it was CME. We got scolding because most of the chairs in class are spoiled and broken. And Hui Hui sat on one of 'em and fall. HAHAHA! Funney. Then i t was VE! Ok ok lah eh... We were asked to say some stuffs about some people.. Pft. I hope i didn't hurt anybody's feelings :S After rushed to Gombak with Jannah to look at the price of the cake while Dian and Syirah go Westmall look at the cake at Polar... Then dicided to get the one from Polar. Then went back to school, celebrated then went up to hall... AVM cancelled? Made a bet with Jannah. She die die say Adam can make me laugh. And i was like no. Then we made a bet. 2 bucks. And she won. Lucky 2 bucks only^.^ Then i not satisfied i make another bet. Adam have to make me laugh till i cry and she lost the bet so she gave me 5 bucks :D And now she ask for the 5 bucks back because she don't wanna lose the bet. Wth? Haha... So the bet is still on, Jannah!! ^.^ I have permanent scares on my hands because of you, boy. ♥ Labels: It'll all end tonight.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @5:43 AM
my ice-cream is melting
My ice-cream is melting! :( Sis lets me use the laptop for awhile cos she have assignments due in 2 days and Uni stuffs ain't easy :) Exams starts next Thursday. Sis starts hers today.. GOOD LUCK BABEH! haha... I went to school today. Daddy sent me.. Woah, jauh babe! I fell asleep on the way :S I reached school at 7am sharp and only Nab was there. She was like " Why you so early?*weird face*" since i am always late.. LOL. Bought Milo and bread, eat. Had assembly... BORENG! -___-zzz It was raining during English and it was sooo cold! So i slept the whole period :D And MT i was having a terrible headache:( Woah, some girl just got a MP3 player like my OLD MP3 player and she's showing off. I mean c'mon! If it's one of the latest models then you can show off(but i woouldn't give a shit). But hers is so last last year!! tsk. Memalukanssss ;) During PW, Syirah and me communicate through notepad :D Gossip about someone in class^.^ She was trying to peep at my damn screen!! Haiyo minah! Oh oh! Tomorrow's Azmira's b'day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRRLFRND!:)There's a whole lot of birthdays coming up. Sadz. Jannah's and Adam's is a must must to celebrate:D We'll celebrate for sure. Ok before i start a fight, i better go off and end my post:D CHAOZ loozazz.. ♥ Labels: thinking of you.
Monday, April 13, 2009 @10:07 PM
Again
And once again, i miss school. I did wake up at 5 but i slept again XD I was like "Wtf?! It's still soo dark outside... So nice to sleep :D " Hah Hah! And Dad's on MC because he overslept. See lah, move to Admiralty all cannot wake up-.-"' Tomorrow it's a must must to go school. LOL. Can my life get any worse? Seriously, it's a bore. My daily routines are ; Wake up, school, home, tv, homework, sleep. And it starts all over again. Gosh! And on weekends? I stay home. I want my exams to be over then, i'll go out every single day^^ Shall save my money so at least my pocket won't be so empty during the hols:D I can't wait for Hannah Montana The Movie. Baaah~! Ouh, i heard there's a new horror movie? Jangan Tegur. Shall catch it during the weekends with Kak Bainy if she's free... Pft. ♥ Labels: my life is a bore. Screw everything. Screw you!
I miss school today. We cleared the house in CCK yesterday. Bahh... I had fever again last night. Pft. I slept and woke up at 4 looking for a tissue box but couldn't find one with all the boxes around. I manage to get a packet of tissue in my school bag :D I woke up i realize it was 10am -.-"' Followed mom and dad to HDB Hub to settle the house and pass over the keys to the new owner and then we went to Railway Station to eat^^ Then, we went to Admiralty MRT Station to top-up my ez-link card then pick Kakak and Abg Ari, eat then go hooome~!. Cleaned the kitchen with mom and packed my bag and now i'm blogging. Blog hopped. Hoho^^ Ouh gosh! I have DnT TEST tomorrow! I hope it's postpones to Thursday! I just remember and guess what? I haven't study! Good luck Aerna. To Syirah: Babe, there's a lot of fish in the ocean. Not just one. Maybe he's just not the right guy. You have a long way to go and we can only live this life once. So make live it to the fullest. Don't get upset over a guy. It's not worth it :) To Shahhstar: Wait, is your name spelled correctly? LOL. Anyways... Relax ah babe. Don't give up just yet. It's still not too late to correct your mistakes. Don't blame the school, don't blame anyone:) Don't blame yourself too. Maybe it's a wake up call for you. Don't stress alrightie? To Ria: When are you leaving? Come back during the holidays alright? Come back to Dunearn! :) I'll miss you a lot, I swear! And whoever talked about you behind your back, they are not true friends. They're not fit to be called friends. Cheer up girlfriend. You might not have realize how much your friend have done for you and how much he/she have cared for you. Even though you're not close with him/her but when they're leaving, you'll feel a hole growing somewhere in your tree in your heart. So treasure your friends while you can. Kakak's trying to fix the gawddamn cable TV. Hoho! She's so semangat man!! Woo~! LOL, random much :D Goodnight. ♥ Labels: till it happens to you :P
Sunday, April 12, 2009 @12:59 AM
moved.
We moved most of the boxes and stuffs yesterday so the house at CCK is almost empty. Last night was our last night there:( Where did we move to? Admiralty. It's like damn far from school. I'll have to wake up at 5:30am! AH! But luckily, we're staying here for only 2 months:) Then we'll move to Woodlands. Way 2 months? Rent. We sold our house a little too early so we're homeless for 2 months. Oh wells. Renting a house is kinda gross but i'll live with it. I have to get up early tomorrow. Sad:( No homework.. Phew! I feel a whole lot better now:) But my neck still hurt. *sigh* Labels: random
Friday, April 10, 2009 @2:49 AM
yay for him!
 Random title. Hah hah... HE GOT IN HE GOT IN!!!!! :D Yes, i'm very excited! CONGRATS:) Anyhoo, i don't feel better. Still sick :l Ouch? You really am heartless, you know? Gosh you IDIOT! This will be a short post i'm guessing. I having nothing much to talk about since i haven't been doing anything much... LOL. ♥ Labels: je t'aime
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @11:21 PM
fuck this people
Gosh, 2 of my friends are leaving to Australia. How sad is that? TWO OF 'EM!!!!!!!!!!! :( Can i leave too? Can i mom? Can i? Yeah, staying in Singapore hurts me so badly. But leaving will hurt me too. Pft. Life is never fair. I went home early today. I had fever. Pft. Mom picked me up, went to eat and went home. heh. I wanna sleep now. I'll update again later tonight. ****** So i went to Poly just now. It was quite fast:D Syirah, like what i said on your tagboard. I'm not trying to nag at you. Just worried. Don't just keep following your mood alright babe? You gotta work hard. Sec 2 is a crucial year:S After your CA you can have all the fun during the hols. Hah. Ever since you sat with them, you kinda change. No offence:) Love you loads alright. Haha! See you in school Monday! Scott's out of American Idol!! Sadzz man!!! And Adam Lambert is awesome:) He have the potential to be the next American Idol^^ OMG, mom actually cried when Scott when out! Wooh. Good thing tomorrow no school. I'm tired. Really am. Exams is in TWO weeks time. No actually ONE week time:S Gotta do revisions and more revisions. Pft! How can i study with fever?! Bad timing to get sick leh!! I'm sick and my mom is just nagging at me bcos im not packing my stuffs. i know what i'm suppose to do and i know when to do it alright! And i know when to eat and how to take my damn blardy food myself!!!!!!! IRRITATING LIKE HELLL~! kakak, thank you eh? -.-"' I'm forgetting you, i think. :S Check out this lil' kid! She's hell cute! The lyrics The coat is inside out, There is no sun above Nothing is going good Since I think of Ghita. But Ghita's not in town I asked why he's not around It seems to me he's gone He's gone abroad Hard, I think it's very hard Want, I don't know what I want I know that you like me too Ghita, what is up with you? Young, come on in or go Young, tell me yes or no Ghita, please don´t anger me Tell me how your life will be Ghita, Tonight I'm waiting at the wicket Me at the station I bought a ticket Come to, But don't come as you did before As usually with empty hands... Who else Will and sing for you as I do Entire evening just getting there Ghita, Show me a girl who's found of you That loves you more as much as I do... Ghita, te-astept diseara la portita Langa portita de la scoala Vino da numa nu vini cum vii tu De obicei cu mana goala Cine te mai asteapta ca si mine O seara intreaga numai pe tine. Ghita, arata-mi tu o fata care Sa te iubeasca asa de tare! ♥ Labels: don't leave
Tuesday, April 7, 2009 @9:47 PM
sore throat
Bah... I missed school today. I couldn't get up in the morning, i was feeling hell weak. Woke up, bathed, tv and laptop. Pft. My throat is omg, so pain. It's like it is swollen on the left side or something :S OUCHHHHHHHH~! :( I hope i get well by Friday^^ I wanna go out! Tsk!! ♥ Labels: siiiiick Victoria Secret?
Ah! David Archuleta's concert! :( But sad i can't go.. I almost fainted in school and now my shoulder hurt so bad and i still feel like fainting. How to go like this with all the crowd... *Sigh* I wanted to ask Shaun but i know he'll say no. So i asked Shawn but he's going to the concert with his other friend :S So i'm not going. Heh. Math class was HELL. Loads of people were ask to get out of the class^^ I made noise and was rebellious but Mdm Chan didn't ask me go out :D Heh Heh! Syahindah was one of them who need to go out.. Tsk. And Syirah wants to go out for fun-.-"' Weird. Than after Math, went to the canteen, sit and then went up to Lab 1. Printed some pictures for Art and i went home. The rest was still inside the Lab making noise. Hoho.. I saw him in Chemistry Lab. Woo~! He so semangat man. Heh Heh. Then i saw him in class when in wanted to go home. Pft. And seeing him makes me feel a little better :D Mom asked for Nasi Lemak so i went to buy. And 300 came so laaate~! Can go crazy leyh. Now, i wanna take medicine and go to bed for awhile:D I have loads of stuffs to pack and do tonight. Haiya. ****** Victoria Secret?^^ heh heh... I'm down with fever!! :( And i'm so soo weak. Pft. ♥ Labels: Like you would not believe you're the only thing i wanted
Monday, April 6, 2009 @4:20 AM
Sick and Tired
When i saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew. I manage to do my Geog test but i left out 1 question containing 3 marks:S Oh, i hope i do well :) School today wasn't fun. Full of problems. Pft. Sadz. I hope it'll all end soon. Really. Mdm Chan wasn't in school so Mr Ong(?) took over. He gave us a worksheet which was supposed to be completed in class but in the end nobody did the paper:) And now it's our homework-.-"' During Math class, Syahindah was kinda moody, i guess so i sat with Nabillah, Dian, Jannah and Azmira. Dian and Nabillah was singing and it rained. LOL! That shows how horrible their singing is! HAHA! Neh, joking. After school, went to the canteen, eat and went for Math QAMS and Mr Raj was VERY late so we sat in 2Pearl. Adam and friends were jumping around like mad monkey. LOL. Then, FINALLY!! Mr Raj came :D HOHO! After QAMS, went to Lab 1 to print out some stuffs and then we slacked under the void deck and Mr Yap came-.-"' SO we have to gooo away. And then, we sent Jannah home because she's scared to go up alone after what happened in the Lab :X And then HOME. Spare tire? What's with you people and treating me like your spare tire, huh? Hey, i have feelings too. I can be a nice friend but i can be evil too. Try me:) I trust nobody thanks to you. All the lies and acting and all the masks you guys have wearing. End it. I know every single thing. Eunice, CHEER UP!! You'll find a better guy, i'm sure. Don't think too much alright? :) ♥ Labels: jerks.
Sunday, April 5, 2009 @8:54 AM
Middle of the night.
I'm blogging at 11:54pm on a Monday night. I'm suppose to be sleeping, i know but i have so many work. LOL. I manage to finish 6 Newspaper Article and i'm left with 3 which will be passed up on Tuesday, i hope. Hah. I regret not doing my homeworks. Now, i'm pilled up with loads of 'em and i'm struggling to finish 'em and i still haven't revise my Geog. I'll do that during recess tomorrow:D I have to go school along tomorrow, aiyo! So lazy. And i have to go to school by myself starting from next week :( Sadz man. Oh wells. I have to iron my uniform and pack my bag and go to sleep or else i won't be able to wake up tomorrow :S Aisyah, GET WELL SOON! :) Goodnight . ♥ Labels: zzz dinosaur!
Did i post today? I can't remember. Uh'oh. Anyways, NEW BLOG SKIN! :) I'm still not satisfied though. Hehe... I'm starting to eat and eat due to my stress and depression. Haha.. Depression... LOL.. And i'm trying so hard to hide the scars on my hand from mom and dad :S I have Geography test tomorrow and i have yet to study. I have so many homework i don't know where to start! And i have loads to pack :S Sadz man. I can't wait for school tomorrow but at the same time, i find it dreadful. Doing the same thing over and over. Nothing new or special. Friends always goofing around. Nothing different. And seeing his face just makes me feel even worse. He's still not replying me. What did i do? Gosh. I have QAMS tomorrow and it's so boring. I'm sure Jannah's gonna escape again! :( That makes me the only one going if Marzuqi is ditching class too. Oh wells, i really wanna get out of QAMS so i guess all i ahve to do is score for exams? Hah. We have Leadership Programme on Wednesday and i find it shit! Go there and waste our time, i don't learn anything. Gosh. Bye, Bye, Bye Bye, Bye... Bye, Bye... Oh, Oh.. I'm doin' this tonight, You're probably gonna start a fight. I know this can't be right. Hey baby come on, I loved you endlessly, When you weren't there for me. So now it's time to leave and make it alone I know that I can't take no more It ain't no lie I wanna see you out that door Baby, bye, bye, bye... Bye Bye Don't wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two You may hate me but it ain't no lie, Baby, bye, bye, bye... Bye Bye Don't really wanna make it tough, I just wanna tell you that I had enough. It might sound crazy, But it ain't no lie, Baby, bye, bye, bye (Oh, Oh) Just hit me with the truth, Now, girl you're more than welcome to. So give me one good reason, Baby come on I live for you and me, And now I really come to see, That life would be much better once you're gone. I know that I can't take no more It ain't no lie, I wanna see you out that door Baby, bye, bye, bye... Bye Bye Don't wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two You may hate me but it ain't no lie, Baby Bye, bye, bye... Bye Bye Don't really wanna make it tough, I just wanna tell you that I had enough (ooh ooh) It might sound crazy, But it ain't no lie, Baby, bye, bye, bye I'm giving up I know for sure I don't wanna be the reason for your love no more Bye Bye I'm checkin' out I'm signin' off Don't wanna be the loser and I've had enough Don't wanna be your fool In this game for two So I'm leavin' you behind Bye, bye, bye... I don't wanna make it tough (wanna make it tough) But I had enough And it ain't no lie (Bye, bye baby...) Bye, Bye Don't wanna be a fool for you Just another player in your game for two (I don't wanna be your fool) But it ain't no lie Baby bye, bye, bye... Don't really wanna make it tough (don't really wanna make ittough), I just wanna tell you that I had enough (that I had enough). Might sound crazy, But it ain't no lie, Bye, bye, bye Should I give up? ♥ Labels: bubble tea
Saturday, April 4, 2009 @9:43 PM
boreng?
I find my blog a bore. My posts and stuffs... Gosh. I'm never satisfied with my blog. Seriously. Aiyo! Pft! Oook, moving on. I'm still feeling shity. *doinks* It's raining cats and dogs. How to go out like this, you tell me. -.-"' So sianz lah. I want a new phone i want a new phone!!!!! Daddyyyyy!!!! >:l Haha... Bah, i want so many stuffs, i think i should start saving up myself ^^ *sigh* So lazy to attend school tomorrow. I'm having a cold and all i feel like doing is sleep, sleep like a pig. Haha... And i'm eating more than ever. This is one thing i hate about myself. When i'm stress, I eat and eat and eat. I'm just afraid to gain weight. I mean, I wanna gain a little weight but if it gets out of control... If you get what i mean... Ok, yeah i know you don't understand kan? heh heh. Forget it lah eh. I'm starting to talk shit. LOL. I wanna go Town next Friday since it's Good Friday.. Anybooodey? I wanna watch movie:D And i wanna eat Ben&Jerry's! Hoho! I wanna ask him out buuuut.. I know he'll say No-.-"' So what's the point ? :'( Labels: blank*
Friday, April 3, 2009 @10:24 PM
Robots and Rockets
I managed to sleep for a few hours without a nightmare last night. And then, i woke up for no reason. LOL. The night seem to pass very slow... And then i fell asleep again but i had nightmares, a different one. *sigh* Still not talking to me... Nvm. :'[ What's up with everybody? None of them are talking to me. Oh, just what did i do? Pft. He's obviously ignoring and avoiding me. Ugh. Why? Idk. *sobs* I'll just end this damn post here. Hah. I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need. I love you more with every breath Truly madly deeply do.. I will be strong I will be faithful 'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning. A reason for living. A deeper meaning. I want to stand with you on a mountain. I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever. Until the sky falls down on me... And when the stars are shining brightly In the velvet sky, I'll make a wish Send it to heaven Then make you want to cry.. The tears of joy For all the pleasure and the certainty. That we're surrounded By the comfort and protection of.. The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you.. I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, Until the sky falls down on me... Oh can't you see it baby? You don't have to close your eyes 'Cos it's standing right before you. All that you need will surely come... I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need. I'll love you more with every breath Truly madly deeply do... ♥ Labels: ignorant Invisible
Bah, what is up with him? I've been having sleepless nights. I hurt myself because of you. Isn't that enough to show how much i really like you? I tried showing you my love and care but you just don't seem to see it. You want me to listen to your problems but you never listen to mine. I keep looking at the bright side of lifr but now, there's no more bright side since you've frozen the fucking fire ball. People say I gotta find the light in the tunnel but now, i figured out that the light bulb exploded and that it'll never ever light up again. NO HOPE. I'm just so invisible to you, aren't i? Nothing i do impress you, right? Never am i good enough for you, right? I wonder why i slash my arms. I should have stopped liking you long time ago, i know. You're so self-centered. I'm sorry if you read this Shaun. Since you don't wanna reply my messages and hear what i wanna tell you, I'll write it all down here. You know, when you're hurt i feel hurt too. When i saw the convo between you and her, I feel like crying too. But you never know that. You never know how much i cared about you. Instead, you cried for some girl who don't give a shit about you. Well, look at it, you like a girl who doesn't care about you and i like a guy who doesn't care about me. I told you, I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore. Every time you ignore me, all i feel like doing is cry. I tried so hard not to hurt your feelings. But still, you never see it. ******** Too alarming now to talk about Take your pictures down and shake it out Truth or consequence, say it aloud Use that evidence, race it around There goes my hero Watch him as he goes There goes my hero He's ordinary Don't the best of them bleed it out While the rest of them peter out Truth or consequence, say it aloud Use that evidence, race it around There goes my hero Watch him as he goes There goes my hero He's ordinary kudos my hero leaving all the best You know my hero, the one that's on There goes my hero Watch him as he goes There goes my hero He's ordinary There goes my hero Watch him as he goes There goes my hero He's ordinary And, still do not have the strength to stay away from you anymore. ♥ Labels: I Love You
Thursday, April 2, 2009 @6:17 AM
hurt
 I'm sick of crying,tired of trying and yeah i'm smiling but inside i'm dying. I can help but cry and cry every night though i'm tired of it. Slashing hands help. Jumping down a building helps even more but what will i get after i jump down? hell. I'm sorry i'm harsh to you all the time. I really am. I tried showing him all my love and care. What else do you want? I tried to comfort you but it won't work. I tried to show you my care and love but do you even see 'em? Through out the 9 months i waited, do you even know? You told me your problems but you never listen to mine. I stayed patient. I'm trying so hard to search for the light in this dark tunnel. I'm alone and it's scary inside her. When can this mascaraed end? I'm tired of putting up this mask all the time. I'm sorry if i ever offended you. I can't sleep at night. I can but if i do, i'll have nightmares about you. I can never have peace when i sleep. Ugh. I can barely eat. Come on.... What do you think i am? A puppet? A doll? You can fool other girls but not me. If my cousin ever gets hurt because of you, you'll watch out. You maybe a guy, but i ain't scared. I'm sorry. You dare ask me for patch and at the same time you tackle my cousin? Gosh, boy, get a life. Don't take girls for advantage, ever! ♥ Labels: you and only you
Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @1:15 AM
April Fool!
I gotta find the light in the tunnel till i find it. Someone told me, "If you wanna be with somebody so badly, you'll wait no matter how long. And now, i'm waiting." I couldn't sleep last night. I was awake turning and tossing around in my bed. Pft. Something's just bothering me. Mostly about him. I couldn't stand looking at how hurt he is by her.GAH! biatch. I wanna make a bigger 'S' on my hand usinga penkife but i'm afraid Mom will notice it :S Sadzxzz. I want a new bag, another shoe, another HP, a new camera and stuffs from Roxy.DADDY!!!!! :( Mom won't let me shop till i pass my CA. Pantat betol.And she's changing my card to Pp8 card. Cb. I can't live with Pp8 and i'll sit in front of daddy and cry in front of him;D Yea yea,i'm so spoiled kan? -.-"' Oh, Kak Siti i'm sorry i busterd you. My sis spilled it first. SORRY. Happy April Fool? Haha!! Talking about April Fool, someone ate chewing gum and threw it on the floor in the school hall and i didn't realize and i sat on it and then it got stuck-.-"' So, i had to borrow a skirt from the DM office... Then Syahindah and I went back to class and didn't knock on the door and then Ms Chao asked us to stand outside.. LOL. So sian lor. Then, after school, i followed Jannah home to take her PE shirt. I wanted to borrow it because i don't wanna go home in FBT and blouse. HAHA! :] I didn't see him the whole day today. Sadzz man. Woo~! Tomorrow have D'gig Audi and AVM. That means, i can see him. I can see him for the whole 2 hours? Or less? HAHA... But still can see :D happy happy....! I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore. ♥ Labels: nobody but you |
